I am not here alot

Only one person will understand this post...

Sat, 17 Jan 2009 21:35:16 GMT

...and I'm not even sure if he still reads this or not.

Every day at least twice, at least, I think ahead to the future, to when the waters will be calmer and we've both grown enough. I think, and dream, and wait with baited breath for the time when you'll come back to me. I can't stop thinking about it.

I miss you so much that it actually does hurt.

DO IT!

Tue, 13 Jan 2009 22:22:24 GMT

It's a Roaring Girl Cabaret double feature!!

Sun, 04 Jan 2009 22:49:30 GMT

"Champagne (Lily Speaks)"
I only drink champagne
When I'm happy, when I'm sad
When I've been very, very good
Or when I've been bad

When I have company
I consider it obligatory
And when I am solitary
I dabble in it to

(French)

When I feel celebratory
I deem it to be neccessary
And when I'm plagued with melancholy
It provides the needed cure
When I'm in love it's compulsory
And when broken hearted gives me sympathy
I trifle with it when I'm not hungry
And I drink it when I am

(French)

Otherwise I never touch it
Unless I'm thirsty.

"Lion in the Streets"
There's a lion in the streets
And I can't come out to play
But I can hear the bleats
Of the lambs who bleed today
And the silver cord is loosened
And I have no regrets
And I hope that you'll forgive me
But I never will forget

And my lucky star shines
As he stumbles through the door
And I know as I pour the wine
Sticks and stones will break bones no more

And I said
la la la lalala, la la la lalala, la la la lalalalala

Broken glass at my feet
And the smell of almonds in the air
He said it tasted wrong
But he didn't speak for long

And the golden ball is broken
With a helpful push from me
Ne'er a truer word was spoken
Death is swallowed in victory
Death is swallowed in victory

**wasn't able to transcribe the French text in "Champagne"**

December is always Morcheeba month

Sun, 28 Dec 2008 03:25:02 GMT

We always have a choice
Or at least I think we do
We can always use our voice
I thought this to be true
We can live in fear
Or extend our selves to love
We can fall below
Or lift our selves above
Fear can stop you loving
Love can stop your fear
Fear can stop you loving
But it's not always that clear
I always try so hard
To share my self around
But now I'm closing up again
Drilling through the ground
Fear can stop you loving
Love can stop your fear
Fear can stop you loving
But it's not always that clear
I'd love to give my self away
But I find it hard to trust
I've got no map to find my way
Amongst these clouds of dust
Fear can stop you loving
Love can stop your fear
Fear can stop you loving
Love can stop your fear
Fear can stop you loving
Love can stop your fear
Fear can stop you loving
But it's not always that clear

WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY????????

Fri, 12 Dec 2008 04:33:38 GMT

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I AM SAD!!!!!!

D:

Colin

Sun, 07 Dec 2008 02:29:17 GMT

WRITE MOAR.

.....oh, and come back to Pickering. I'm back at Spencer's more often ._.

Oh MERCY! Loosen the vice./Damn these stupid poetic moods....

Thu, 04 Dec 2008 02:39:16 GMT

"Sound of Water" - Sarah Slean

Just to hear the sound of water
Just to put the fire on ice
I'm lying down in the shower
O mercy loosen the vice
Sometimes the sword is so heavy
And the pain has a ravenous mouth
In the pits of my own making
Sometimes I don't think I'll ever get out

All the world stroking their comas
And the madmen making the news
Bent over like a beggar
I was saying "it's no use"
This ain't the world for intelligent women
Unless you like swimming in your own dark sea
These are times for urgent rhymes
But where the poetry?

When the light
The light is hard to find!
And you're walking blind
You only need to change your mind
Your mind

Wide awake and hope-infected
I became a glittering queen
Every light in my direction
Was a bright magnificent green
Adorned with invisible riches
I saw my stitches glowing so bright
No the burden was not heavy,
For the master it was light!

When the light
The light is hard to find!
And you're walking blind
You only need to change your mind
You only need to change your mind
Your mind

Well, this is wonderfully curious!

Mon, 17 Nov 2008 02:22:05 GMT

I seem to be turning up on more Japanese sites. This time pictures of my sister and I. It was to be expected though....kinda :p
http://camino-kiku.jugem.jp/?eid=1484
http://camino-ryo.jugem.jp/?eid=516

Dot Con 2008, Saturday

Mon, 17 Nov 2008 01:56:40 GMT

DOOF!!!
http://good-times.webshots.com/album/568696131iXZKjN

M'eh. It was mostly lame. I wasn't miserable or frustrated though, so it's all good. I enjoyed the time I spent there.

OMG!

Thu, 06 Nov 2008 06:18:56 GMT

PUPPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEZ!!!
SHIBA PUPPIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEES!!!!

http://cdn1.ustream.tv/swf/4/viewer.45.swf?cid=317016

Oh man...

Thu, 30 Oct 2008 03:41:54 GMT

.....the amount of times this has happened to me:

nataliedee.com

And now more Countdown to Halloween with Amy Winehouse!

Fri, 17 Oct 2008 02:19:41 GMT

For you I was a flame
Love is a losing game
Five story fire as you came
Love is a losing game

Why do I wish I never played
Oh what a mess we made
And now the final frame
Love is a losing game

Played out by the band
Love is a losing hand
More than I could stand
Love is a losing hand

Self professed... profound
Till the chips were down
...know you're a gambling man
Love is a losing hand

Though I'm rather blind
Love is a fate resigned
Memories mar my mind
Love is a fate resigned

Over futile odds
And laughed at by the gods
And now the final frame
Love is a losing game

Amy Winehouse

Wed, 15 Oct 2008 04:03:41 GMT

It's okay in the day, I'm staying busy
Tied up enough so I don't have to wonder where is he
Got so sick of crying, so just lately
When I catch myself I do a 180

I stay up, clean the house, at least I'm not drinking
Run around just so I don't have to think about thinking
That silent sense of content, that everyone gets
Just disappears soon as the sun sets

This face in my dreams seizes my guts
He floods me with dread
Soaked in soul, he swims in my eyes by the bed
Pour myself over him, moon spilling in
And I wake up alone

If I was my heart I'd rather be restless
The second I stop the sleep catches up and I'm breathless
This ache in my chest, as my day is done now
The dark covers me and I cannot run now

My blood running cold, I stand before him
It's all I can do to assure him
When he comes to me, I drip for him tonight
Drowning in me we bathe under blue light

His face in my dreams seizes my guts
He floods me with dread
Soaked in soul
He swims in my eyes by the bed
Pour myself over him
Moon spilling in

And I wake up alone
And I wake up alone
And I wake up alone
And I wake up alone

Gaaah!

Thu, 09 Oct 2008 02:08:28 GMT

I hate googling myself, although some days curiosity gets the better of me and I eventually do it. This time I found myself on a Japanese podcast site!!!! Eeeeek!

Taxi Cab Heart/Jennifer Bettencourt
14_Taxi_Cab_Heart-Jennifer Bettencourt.mp3TotalTime 3：37今回は Jennifer Bettencourt さんというカナダで活動中の女性シンガーの曲。タイトルの意味がよくわかりませんが、夕暮れ、港町、石造りの街並みというイメージが浮かんできました。(英語がわかる人は彼女のプロフィールに書いてあったものを読んでください。私はわかりませんが(T^T))An...
Published: Sunday, 19 November 2006 08:00:26
Duration: 00:03:00
Size: 3.31 MB
Link

Hmmm

Wed, 08 Oct 2008 01:40:11 GMT

Does THIS look familiar?.............

Well, I'll probably play it nevertheless. It'd hopefully tide me over until the next real Ace Attorney game is released.
I NEED MOAR ACE ATTORNEY SO BADLY!!!! SO BADLY IT HURTS.

Clearly...

Tue, 30 Sep 2008 06:15:43 GMT

While I'm well aware that parents get mad at their children for staying awake until (in their minds) obscene hours of the night/the wee hours of the morning, I'd like to believe that my mother is the only mother in the world to get mad at her 23 year old for staying up until 2 in the morning to finish watching West Side Story on Turner Classic Movies. Oh, and I never got to finish it. Turning off the TV and coming upstairs was the only way to get her to stop screaming. I don't get it. Sometimes I think my father and I are the only people in this household who think rationally.

Me, watching a musical on TV until 2 A.M., volume low, not singing along, everyone sleeping.

Mother, yelling at me from the top of the stairs to go to bed, waking up my father who has to be up in 2 and a half hours and forcing a response back up from me.

Pick your poison. I'd like to think that the former option creates less noise and a friendlier environment for everyone to function in.

Also, on the note of West Side Story, since this is my first time watching it...or at least a large chunk of it...what's with all the terrible singing? And bad accents? And "Puerto Rican" girls who really just look like run of the mill white girls with poofy black wigs and all over spray on tans? Seriously...this is supposed to be a classic. While some lines and some parts of the show and songs did amuse me (some parts were rather witty...I chuckled inside) I just didn't find it to be as appealing as grade 12 vocal jazz class made it out to be. OH! And I found that "America" song quite funny considering the financial state America is in now. I'm CLEARLY biased but...why would anyone want to emigrate there these days anyway? Especially when Canada is so much better and not that much farther away.

Would I watch it again? You bet your cholita ass I would!! This hot mess is so entertaining at stupid o'clock in the morning all alone.

Until the mother with the real latin accent breaks into your mental, musical theatre high, that is.

Angry much?

Mon, 29 Sep 2008 05:32:33 GMT

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! </rage>

Squeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel!!

Wed, 24 Sep 2008 05:28:55 GMT

DO. WANT.

NIИ!!!!!!!!!111oneone1one

Thu, 07 Aug 2008 00:52:31 GMT

HOLY COW GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
I WENT TO GO SEE NIN! I CAN HAZ NIN! OBVIOUSLY, L0LLERSKATES.

It COULD be the air conditioning, but I swear that typing that sent a chill down my spine. Horrible. The same way I hate butchering Portuguese by saying words with a terrible, anglicized accent makes me want to wash myself inside and out because I feel so dirty....I also hate butchering English because any language deserves so much better than that. ANY LANGUAGE. Yes....even the crazy type of English the folks up in Newfoundland speak.

Anyhow. So I went to see Nine Inch Nails last night at the Air Canada Centre in Toronto and I loved it. Plain and simple. It was perfect and the crowd wasn't one extreme or the other, thankfully. No assholes ruined "Hurt" (thank you fellow Canadians) no one flipped out on stage despite a few tech issues. Although watching Robin to see what he was going to do when his guitar was crapping out at the beginning of "The Big Comedown" was interesting.

This is the first show that I've ever been so close to, seat wise, and I'm glad I popped my awesome seat cherry at a NIN show. WHAT I would give to just be able to hit nearly every show on this tour and follow them around North America. Accursed money!!! Or lack thereof.

It's so difficult for me to actually just quickly and nonchalantly type some sort of real review on the internet for some strange reason. The only things I can spit out seem relatively fangirly I guess. I loved Robin. He was incredible to watch and I found myself watching him for most of the show. I never thought I'd like anyone more than Aaron North, but it turns out that's not the case. In my opinion, Robin tops Aaron in a heartbeat. He's got him topped in everything from skill and presence to style and temperament. I'm very glad I was seated stage Robin, the show was really great from that side. JMJ is a great addition to the band and he is VERY talented. In fact, I love all of the multi talent in each and every one of the musicians which shined through especially well on all the Ghosts songs. Someone over at the Echoing the Sound forums had mentioned that they wouldn't mind being treated to an all Ghosts live experience, and I've gotta say that I wouldn't mind that either. In fact, I am going to request that. All Ghosts live show? Please?

I don't know if I mentioned this earlier but I was really happy with the section I was in. Despite the girl to my left who seemed awfully tanked after 2 cups of beer, and even she amused me more than anything. EXCEPT for the 2 or so times she INSISTED on YELLING "I LOVE YOU TRENT REZNOR!!!" Christ. You're a grown woman. Must you insist on yelling such things? It was actually a mix of people sitting and standing, but no one was stupid. Most of the sitting happened during Ghosts, and I sat to, mainly because I was in way too much awe of everything that was assaulting my eyes in front of me. It was beautiful. Hence why I would like a full 2+ hours of Ghosts, Ghosts, Ghosts.

Anyhow, I think I may actually sit down and pen a proper review one day. Actually write it out, which is what I'm prone to doing before creating any sort of digital file. I prefer it and I feel like it helps me write and organize my thoughts better.

To close, I left with 2 shirts, a generic NIN/Year Zero girl shirt (because I've wanted a NIN girl shirt for so, so long and the girl shirts at the 2006 show were hideous, in my opinion) and a tour date shirt. I went in originally just wanting to get a tour date shirt because I didn't think they'd have any girl shirts (they didn't at the previous shows in this tour) then when I saw they had both...well, I got both. Unfortunately, the ONE tour shirt that I had absoloutely zero hesitation in wanting only started at size medium. I'm always told, "oh, don't worry, it'll shrink, it'll shrink!" Yeah, fuck off. It never shrinks enough to actually fit me you cunts. So whenever a sales person tells me that, I kind of mentally roll my eyes and ignore that part of their sales pitch because it never works on me. I'm a stick you people, you can see that, this medium will never shrink to fit me the way a small would. Anyhow...I'm getting off track. However, I decided I'd splurge and get the size medium tour date shirt as well. The only other tour date shirt that came in small, while cool, I had already seen it in pictures and had original doubts about buying. Meanwhile, the red stripe/The Slip tour date shirt that I ended up buying was the one shirt that upon seeing I knew I'd get for sure. So despite being a size too large, I'm quite happy with myself for getting it. Besides, if it ends up being ridiculously big on me (which it isn't) I could always just give it to Tiago and then he'd have a NIN shirt to wear! Yay!

I took a SHIT TON of pictures during the show, of which only 14 turned out presentable to human eyes.
I have them up on my Flickr, check them out!
And if you haven't already, head on over to nin.com and download their latest album The Slip today! It's a great album and the perfect step forward in their musical direction. Every day I'm hooked on a new song, today it's "Echoplex."

OH! And one more thing, super quickly, before I bring this to an end. I NOW know my people go to multiple shows throughout certain tours. Now I want to go to all of the other shows nearby, I want to see EVERY song they've played at all the other shows but didn't play last night. I just want to see that amazing light show over and over and over.

How many...

Wed, 23 Jul 2008 00:25:49 GMT

How many of you bitches (good bitches!) just want to fall asleep and never, ever wake up?
Man. Everything is so perfect when you're asleep!

oh blargarg...

Sun, 20 Jul 2008 20:04:53 GMT

What is WRONG with me? I am moving on to my third cup of coffee...technically. Although with the size of the first two mugs, I wouldn't be surprised if it's about to become a total of 4 or 4 1/2 even.

Dez no Caramelldansen

Tue, 17 Jun 2008 02:24:45 GMT

Everyone HAS to watch this...because my sister and I are in it :p IGNORE the fact that it's a Caramelldansen video...again, because my sister and I are in it, which means THIS Caramelldansen video is filled with nothing. but. win. This is the BEST Caramelldansen video you'll ever see. It's awesome. AWESOME!!!!!!!

Also....

Wed, 14 May 2008 22:22:59 GMT

I'm thoroughly afraid that this may, indeed, happen to me:

Because sometimes, don't you go for a Nº1, stop, sniff the air slightly and wonder who left the coffee pot on for too long?.......Seriously..........anyone?......................*crickets*

................shit.

My sister's been turned into a Persocon

Wed, 14 May 2008 21:02:31 GMT

Well, not really. That would be AWESOME, because then I could install a program in her to do her share in the house and not leave empty olive containers all over the damn place.
Anyway, my point is that the ever awesome Dez has drawn another picture of my lovely sister, this time as a Persocon seeing as she's going as Chii for AN this year (I will be Arale v2.0.) It's a fabulous drawing and everyone should check it out:
http://dez26.deviantart.com/art/Nancy-85602277
Also, if you've got an account, request this as a print ;) Nance could be the next Mona Lisa......well, not exactly, but you get the point, and Dez could get some cashola!

SUCK IT TORONTO!

Wed, 07 May 2008 20:34:39 GMT

http://tour.nin.com --> 05 Aug 08 --> Toronto, ON --> Air Canada Centre (map) --> presale: Sold Out

TWO OF THOSE ARE MINE, BABY!